I tried to commit suicide, Shama Sikander
Shama Sikander, who rose to fame with the TV series ‘Ye Meri Life Hai’ revealed about bipolar disorder few months back. Now she made a shocking revelation that she tried to commit suicide 5 years back because she felt hopeless and did not want to survive. Shama also said that she ignored her ex-boyfriend Alexx O'Neil's advice to see a doctor.
"Alexx, who has a degree in Psychology, suspected that I had bipolar disorder and advised me to consult a doctor. But at that time, I didn't want to get cured; I just wanted to give up. Though my life was going great, I was bored of it; nothing would impress or excite me. I even tried to commit suicide one night. I kissed my mother good night and told her not to wake me up. After that, I swallowed several sleeping pills at one go. Just before slipping away, I texted my brother my bank account details, which made him panic. He immediately called my mother to check on me and I was rushed to the hospital three hours later," the actress told The Times of India.
She adds, "I was angry with my family for saving me. I wanted to go and return as a new person. I didn't see death as the end; rather, it was the beginning of a new life. I didn't know that a rebirth was possible in the same life. But slowly, my soul awakened and I realised that it was a spiritual calling.""My condition didn't improve even after two years of medication, but when it did, I started looking at life with a new perspective. Now, I seek joy in small things and make a conscious effort to befriend people. I have become more open and receiving. I want to share my story so that people will know that it's okay to be messed up," she said.