Regret dumping my wife and child for Sushmita Sen, Vikram Bhatt

In an interview with ‘HT Brunch’, filmmaker Vikram Bhatt made a candid confession about his life, his extra-marital relationship with Sushmita Sen, divorcing his wife, abandoning his child and many more.

Vikram Bhatt admitted that life became so pathetic after breaking up with Sushmita and ending his marriage with childhood sweetheart Aditi and leaving his daughter that he had contemplated suicide, he wanted to jump from the balcony of his house on the sixth floor.

“That was not because of Sushmita. That was because of what I’d done to my life. I had gotten divorced, my film Ghulam was yet to be released, I was only Sushmita Sen’s boyfriend, I was depressed, I missed my daughter like crazy...I had just made a mess of my life,” says Vikram. “I don’t think any one relationship in my life has wrecked me. I think I am a collection of wrecks.”

Vikram Bhatt regrets cheating on his wife with Sushmita Sen, “I regret hurting my wife and my child and abandoning them. I regret the pain I caused them. I always believe that when you’re not courageous, you become cunning. I did not have the courage to tell Aditi how I felt. And it was all happening together, it was a big mess,” he says. “I regret being weak at that time. Had I not been weak, things would have been different today. But when I look back in hindsight, it’s all about growing up, and everything teaches you something at least.”

Vikram has just released a novel, ‘A Handful of Sunshine’, that shows many shades of life. It revolves around Veer and Mira, who are madly in love with each other, but tragedy stuck and they separated. When they meet years later, they decide to dump their respective lover/spouse and get back together, “It’s not autobiographical; it’s sourced from real life, inspired by real life,” clarifies Vikram. “There’s nothing about Sushmita or Ameesha in this book. While they may have been my most-known relationships, I think they were the shallow ones.”

Vikram says he never wants to get married again. “I don’t believe in the institution of marriage anymore. It’s redundant; it’s an outdated institution. It’s like lanterns in a house, you don’t use them anymore,” he says. “Marriage worked because of the imbalance between a man and woman, with one dependant on the other. But in our new social climate, with both people being independent, it suddenly stops working.”

Did he ever want to marry Sushmita or Ameesha? “No, I didn’t want to marry either of them,” he says. “And it’s not like there’s any bitterness. There’s too much water under the bridge now.”

 “In my younger days I played a little bit, which everyone does,” says Vikram. “And I don’t think BDSM is a sexual thing at all. It’s about control and surrender. My understanding of BDSM is that it takes a very powerful person to surrender and it takes a very responsible person to take control. It’s a relationship of immense trust. You can’t possibly allow yourself to be tied up unless you know the person...that can be very scary.”

Having spoken to couples on online chat rooms as part of his research, Vikram says that in India, “there’s a lot of it out there. There are many couples who are into BDSM.”

Should we next expect a memoir from him? “No,” he says vehemently, and then chuckles. “I’ve already ruined my life enough.”